Some knitters create their own amazing designs and knitting patterns; others have mastered the art of modifying an existing pattern.
I, however, am not either kind of person. In knitting, as in life, I prefer to play it safe. I knit directly from the pattern, line by line. Occasionally I will make something longer or shorter, but that's about it. I'm trying, though. The knitting in the picture above is the first of a pair of fingerless gloves I am working on that I am making up as I go. Well, actually, I am following Ann Budd's Handy Book of Patterns with a stitch pattern modified from another pattern. I'm also hoping to design my own socks and follow the Knit Picks Socktacular book instructions. I have a long way to go before I am comfortable with just winging things, but I'm working on it.
It's not just knitting, though. When I make decisions in life in general, big or small, I stick to the safe side. You cannot undo mistakes in life like you can in knitting. If I mess up a knitting project, I can rip it back and try again; knitting is forgiving that way. But real people and real life are not like that. I want to have a plan; I want to know what's going to happen. But life does not usually work out that way. There is no way to know the future, and my plans must be altered to fit changing circumstances. Sometimes, I don't even have a plan, which is even more terrifying to me than a changed plan.
But, in life and knitting, I am learning to just go with it. There are stress, tears, and lots of internal conversations. I have to learn to let things go and trust God as He changes me and my life. Instead of fighting that, I need to trust in His lovingkindness, forgiveness, and mercy. I am not, and probably never will be, described as spontaneous, but I am learning to be okay with mistakes and not having a plan.
What about you? Do you struggle with plans changing abruptly?
P.S. The winner of the Truly Myrtle pattern giveaway is Abbie! I have e-mailed Libby and you will receive your pattern soon.